Oh man, where do I begin!
While working with Stevie over the last six months, I experienced a radical transformation in my life and relationship to myself. I went into the program trapped in a cycle of thoughts and actions that I had been repeating for YEARS. I had broken my relationship to food and my body through continual patterns of restrictive eating, extreme dieting, binging, purging, and trying to redeem all of my "mistakes" through a crazy workout regimen. This way of living consumed so much of my time, energy and happiness. And though it took me a while to admit it, I was still struggling and knew that I finally needed to ask for help. So I reached out to Stevie, and we immediately booked a preliminary consultation. She was so easy to open up to about all of the darker secrets I had held onto for so long, and I was positive she was the person I could trust to help me heal because it was clear that she had done so for herself.
Over the course of 6 months, she helped me get to the root of my issues and most importantly showed me that it's not about the food, and definitely not about my body. It's not about what I should eat, or shouldn't eat, when or how much I should eat. It's not about how much weight I can lose, how heavy I am now, how I can be "bikini ready," or how many squats I should do to have the perfect butt. It's not about any of the things! All of the things that held my focus for so long were totally off base, and she helped me break that fixation and start to take a look at what's really important: MY FEELINGS.
Each session we observed at what I was feeling. She helped me gain a new perspective to work through old, tired limiting beliefs and worn out stories in order to reconnect with the truth of who I really am. I'm not claiming that this was easy, and that everything happens overnight. This is HARD WORK, and it requires a really deep (and sometimes painful) look at memories, relationships, traumas, and fears. There were tears. But I have to be real with you when I say that having Stevie facilitate and guide me through this journey was priceless. Before I hired Stevie as my coach, I really thought I could "fix" myself. But now I see how important it was to have somebody there to show you that you aren't broken to begin with. There is no doubt in my mind that had I not worked with her I would still be exactly where I was 6 months ago, hating myself because I ate a brownie and setting my alarm early to get my "fat ass" to the gym.
There are so many positive tangible changes, in fact I'm sitting in one of my favorites right now! I'm writing this from kitchen of the new apartment I moved into while working with Stevie. When we shifted my focus from food and body and all of that struggle, I was able to take a look at what I really wanted to create in my life. Stevie encouraged me to dream big and pursue the things I really wanted. I didn't have to subject myself to a shitty apartment, I could have my perfect space and ideal home environment. I loved that she helped me take a good, hard look at those type of subconscious limiting beliefs and release them. Now I feel empowered to unafraid to craft the life I truly want to live.
I also redeemed a ton of time and energy that had previously been wrapped up in making sure I didn't gain weight. I was able to turn that energy around and direct it towards some of the ambitions that I've had for a long time. I started my own business and found a voice for the things that I'm passionate about, and now create art and content that allows me to show up as the person I've always wanted to be.
One of the most important outcomes though is the change in the way I speak to myself. I was soooo hard on myself for so long. I would berate and punish myself for not being perfect, especially when it came to eating and my physical form. It's a daily practice, but Stevie gave me the tools to repair my relationship to not only me but my inner child. I've been practicing daily to align my thoughts, feelings, and actions to the highest version of myself, and Stevie showed me how it's done. Because of this, I've noticed that my overall joy for life is much higher than before. I allow myself to do more things that I love in my spare time. I invest way more time in my friendships and experiences; I'm just happier in general.
It was so wonderful working with Stevie because I knew she could relate. I always felt seen, heard, and supported through both the good and difficult times. I looked forward to our calls because I knew we were going deep and getting real in our conversations. Her energy is lovely and fun while being nurturing and grounded. She held a safe, comfortable space for me to be honest about any hard thoughts or feelings I was dealing with, and her feedback was always extremely constructive. She was totally in tune, and asked pertinent questions that led to an amazing amount to self discovery. She was vulnerable and open when discussing her own experience too, which I really appreciated. Hearing that she once felt exactly the same way gave me so much optimism about the possibility for my own change and growth. I left every call feeling uplifted and excited to embrace the homework I had been given. (Aww reflecting on this makes me wish we still had our Tuesday sessions. Our calls were one of my favorite parts of the week!)
I feel like I dropped the baggage I'd dragged around for so long. Although I'm still a work in progress, I feel like I'm doing the right type of internal work and setting up a strong foundation for the way I live the rest of my life. I'm not using my old, unproductive methods to try and solve my problems anymore. I've been given a new skill set, and now I address my issues effectively rather than staying trapped in a vicious cycle. I am so happy that I made the decision to work with Stevie, because I am finally seeing real changes in an area of my life that had been so stagnant. I no longer feel trapped by food, or ashamed of my body. I have gained the understanding that my self worth is not connected to either of these things. This new belief has given me a sense of freedom, and I think it's reflected in the way I move through the world now. Without a doubt, 20/10 would recommend Stevie.